I'm a video game perfectionist. Basically, what that means is, I play games until I complete all the achievements. I like to think it is a double-edged-sword because it saves money and also leads to procrastination. I play difficult games, some longer than others, and with that comes difficult achievements. It's almost funny how much I procrastinate games because almost my entire list is half-finished games. Some of them, I stop playing because it's just too overwhelming. I think it begun with Breath of The Wild, overtime I grew overwhelmed with the quests I had to finish. But I did pretty good - I finished majority of the shrines, I obtained the legendary sword, I finished all the main quests, excluding the last boss. Then again... I actually never finished games as a kid. So I'll see this an improvement.
Since I'm very passionate about achievements, you can imagine my reaction for additional achievements to be shocking. I used to hate it when a game updates. An update, when I haven't finshed my other games, only meant more work for me to do. This thought took a turn when I was looking at my downloaded games with new free content. Buried winin my thoughts of annoyance was a single realisation. Maybe this is their way of helping us to save money, by distracting us with new goals to complete. I try to spend a little money as possible while they keep me entertained wiith free DLCs.
I actually considered becoming a Vtuber. The appeal of it was overwhelming, only until recently. When I was a teenager, I actually was a “Vtuber” on an app named REALITY, designed for smaller Vtubers. I remember singing in my room, trying to be quiet as to not disturb my parents, while the people in my comment section said I sang too quietly. I didn’t stay on the platform and went into something else, much like any interest of mine. But I didn’t have any negative experiences on it. However…
Modern day Vtubing is different. I noticed that many things on the internet has became more extreme, more intense. Vtubing is no difference. I can’t say whether YouTube or Twitch is better since both carry their own dramas. One thing I’m concerned about is the fact that - by being a Vtuber, you’re essentially an entertainer. As an entertainer, you have to chase trends, market yourself across platforms, become a people pleaser. Because without your fans, you’re nothing, and they will make sure you know that. Twitter is especially terrifying because of how people are cancelled left and right. If I became a Vtuber, I’d have to hide this persona so I still have a safe space on the internet, in case someone targets me... Just another reason not to do it.
I don’t plan to make money as a Vtuber, so it’s sad how the negatives outweigh the positives. I only want a small community, something that isn’t superficial, though even 50 views would be too much for me. So I have to ask myself, is it worth it? I think I cornered myself by being so vulnerable and open on the internet. It’s almost laughable how easy it is to trace my digital footprint, which makes this decision more riskier. But... If I become a faceless streamer, then no one will draw inappropriate images of my avatar. No one can sexualise my appearance. I can, possibly, create my own safe space.
On another topic... Deltarune chapter 3 and 4 is releasing soon, within the next ten-ish days! I know I will have to wait just as long for chapter 5 and onwards, but it is nice to finally have more content. Toby Fox is a fantastic storytelling and I am sure it will show in the following chapters.